Lazu Jet Markl
Julian smiled slightly. He didn't seem too bothered with my sudden affection. If this was anyone else, they would be. No one here apart from Raisa and Julian were very affectionate. Well, Bella was, but... No way I'm going near that woman. I shivered again, this time not because I was cold.
“A book about angels. Don’t know if it’s any good but it was a new one and seeing how you mentioned you like the idea of angels…” I blinked up at him, confused that he'd remembered that. Just like how he remembered how I hated jumpers. I smiled uncertainly and cocked my head to the side.
“And I like to count myself amongst those who read good books.” I nodded slightly. I wasn't sure what kind of stuff he read. Maybe I could be nice and ask. But at the same time, I knew I wouldn't. I was calmer, but the words still wouldn't leave my lips.
“Yeah, I’m pretty sure that if we would stack all of your books they would be at least a mile high.” Julian laughed, a soft sound. I liked it, I decided. It was a nice sound. Today's events had shown Julian in such a different light, it was like I was getting to know a completely different and new person. I'd always though Julian seemed nice. He was friendly. He was the most sane and normal person in the house... But like with everyone, I kept my distance. It was my solitary side, the one that, until today, had felt so very safe. But after the rough treatment of the strange Hunter, after the terror I felt, alone felt scary. Which was why I was clinging onto Julian like I was a five year old.
“And you might have a long beard by the time you finished all of them indeed. A blue one. Now that would be quite the sight, don’t you think?” I blinked and imagined myself with a bright blue beard. I giggled. Okay, it would look silly. I should never, ever grow a beard. Ever. Julian slides a strand of my hair through his fingers.
Suddenly, I felt quite self conscious. A weird feeling. I didn't care much about what people thought about my looks. I looked weird, I knew that. But this was the first time it slightly bothered me. And it made sense, to me anyway. I felt safe with Julian in a way I had never experienced with another person before. It was new, and I didn't want to mess up this fragile, careful new friendship. Because if I did, I would be alone again. Alone was no longer safe.
“I have some sweaters. You can borrow one if you like.” he frowned thoughtfully, and I just kind of stared at him. There is a hint of brown in his green eyes. They were framed by purple-blue bags. I hadn't noticed it before; I didn't pay attention to these details. I'd never seen how tired Julian really looked. Just like how I had never noticed the strange scar on the right side of his face, near his eye. It was an L-shape, like half a square.
“They will probably be a bit too big on you though. But they’re warm?” I saw his lips curve into a smile. “You might even look like you’re wearing a tent, but hey. One has to pick between being cold or wearing something too big.” I nodded and smiled carefully, my lips feeling strange. Despite hating jumpers with a passion, I just wanted to be warm. I felt vulnerable, exposed. And again, self-conscious. It was such a strange, alien feeling.
“Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars,” I said, my voice slightly shaky. My hand has a mind of its own as it reached out and trailed a fingertip over the scar under his eye. I smiled nervously and quickly pulled my hand back.
“I-I mean...” I had to force the words out of my mouth. Sometimes, I don't even fight the tic anymore. It's just so much simpler to let the words out. “A sweater... sounds quite nice right now...” Even if they're uncomfortable. I had never found a sweater that's comfy. They're too big or too tight or too warm or not warm enough and I just prefer shirts... With buttons... But I was cold, over exposed... I was upset enough to actually want a sweater.
“T-Thank you,” I managed. I was unsure if I was thanking him for the sweater-offer, or everything else. The company he provided, the... the strange sense of comfort... I gave an awkward smile. “One kind word can warm three winter months.” I liked that... It was a Japanese proverb and it was nice. I liked kind words. And warm things. Apart from sweater. I only liked one right now because I was having a really not-so-good day.
“Give a man a fire and he's warm for the day. But set fire to him and he's warm for the rest of his life.” I giggled slightly and step out of Julian's arms. I was still shivering and exposed, so I wrap my arms around my chest.
“S-Sorry... Yeah... A-A sweater sounds nice,” I repeated shakily. I direct my words to the floor. Why was I suddenly so uncomfortable? Maybe because I was making an ass out of myself... I chewed my lip and turned to the door that leads to the hallway. I hoped we don't run into anyone. I made my way up the stairs rather quickly, as always.
Jaimes Avril Ashley
The woman seriously looked like she wanted to punch me. I was good at pissing people off, it was surprisingly easy. I grinned, unimpressed by her obsession with my boner. Seriously, even if the guy was stupidly sexy, there was nothing wrong with me wanting to screw him senseless. Absolutely nothing. The part that bothered me was how I couldn't repress it like I usually do. But that's not this woman's business.
She makes a few more comments, but I'm already heading for the door.
“Maybe that dude you are thinking about can show you.”
“Jesus woman, are you always this obsessed about other people's sex life? I think you need to get laid.” I shake my head, laughing softly. She said some more sarcastic things, and I watch her for a few seconds, staring at the picture of a young boy. She death glares at my question.
‘Because it’s fun. Hm. You don’t think so, then?’ She grins. God she's tiring. I despise people like this. I might be egocentric and sexy, but atleast I don't try and fail to be a smart-ass all the time, like this one here.
‘Can you take the hint now and get outta here, Mister Know-it-all?’
“Gladly.” I wink at her and make my way downstairs. “That is, if I can find my way out in the dump,” I mutter to myself as I try and get to the door. Jesus Christ, have a little house-pride.
Once on the streets, I have that briefly lost feeling again. I make my way into the woods, ignoring the large protection house and the memories that backyard now hold for me. It bothers me, the fact that I keep thinking about Jack. I wander the forest for what seems like hours, but what might have only been thirty minutes. Eventually, I wearily sit b y the lake. I seem to be alone, which is what I need right now. That, and a plan. Because this couldn't go on. I needed to focus. I needed to get eleven more gems. Then I would get Linda back. Linda had barely been on my mind lately, which was worrying.
I took my shirt and jeans off, leaving me standing there in my boxers. If I wasn't alone, it wouldn't bother me. I was god damn sexy. I went into the lake, which was ice cold. I shiver and dive under. I decided to camp out here for the night. It was that, or sleep in Scarletta's place. I was not doing that. I was quite used to sleeping under the stars, and there didn't seem to be many people around. After swimming around the lake a couple of times, I climb out. I'm shivering and my fingers are wrinkled. It's not even evening yet and I'm actually quite hungry. I might actually have to resort to stealing food from the shop tomorrow morning. I lay down on he grass, waiting for my body to dry. But as I wait, sleep overtakes me. The sun warms my wet body, my eyes closed and I'm gone into a world of fire, shadows and terror.
[ bericht aangepast op 29 mei 2013 - 21:27 ]
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