Viktor—and Cordelia—waited for her at the gate and Juniper acknowledged them with a curt nod. It was, to say the least, predictable that the woman joined. She followed him everywhere. In Juniper’s eyes she was almost like a stray puppy, rescued from the streets—loyal and determined to pursue. “Let's go”, she said, adjusting the strap of her bag as she prepared to leave. The air was crisp, even more so due to the fatigue in her bones and the war weighing in her mind.
One step. Two.
Then she heard them. Their footsteps, their voices. Her jaw clenched. Her stomach twisted. With a brusque gesture of her head she let Viktor know to get moving. She would deal with them. Then, she turned slowly—catching sight of the only two people she didn’t want wandering outside of Riverside.
Shit.
A rollercoaster of emotions hammered against her ribs. And the only thing she could do was stare at them in anger. “Oh, like hell”, she said through clenched teeth, her eyes ablaze with fury. And before either of them even had the cojones to answer: “Go back.”
Neither of them even flinched. "Go back”, she repeated, stepping forward as if she could physically force them to turn around. She might as well have done that. "Now." But there wasn't any intention of going back inside, from either of them. Her hands curled into fists. She opened her mouth again—only to close it when another joined. A newcomer. “Who the fuck is this?”, she huffed, her eyes scanning him with a scathing look, “You want me to babysit? He is more dead than alive.” The mission was supposed to be simple: her and Viktor, in and out, no distractions, no liabilities. The fact that these three now stood before her—defiant, persistent—only made her blood boil hotter. Juniper jerked her stare from Benjamin to Elliot and back again, without acknowledging the stranger. They should know better. They should know why going alone was the better choice.. This was her burden to carry. Her choice. Her mission. And if they came with her—
No.
She took another step closer, almost snarling like a wild beast, “We're not playing Indiana Jones here”, she spat, “There's worse fates out there than simply dying, do you two even realize that?” They acted like they had a say in the matter. They didn't. Dread curled around her heart, tightening it without remorse. She couldn’t—wouldn't—risk losing them. Why do they have to be so stubborn about this? She damned them. For making this harder by standing there. For making her feel anything at all. She lowered her voice, but make no mistake: the sharp edge remained. “I have this under control. I don't need back-up. And I certainly don't need either of you tagging along just to get yourselves killed. You'll only slow me down. Now, instead of focusing on what actually matters, I get to spend this whole damn mission watching your backs. And to top it off: you brought him”, she jerked her chin towards the newcomer, “We don't know him. I sure as hell don't trust him. And neither should you.” She seethed, the knuckles whitened as she tightened her fists—her nails digging into her palms.
“Benjamin, Elliot, last chance to—Go. Back.” As she said it, she already knew the truth: she couldn't stop them. Knew that she couldn't fight it. And more than that: there wasn't any time for this. No time for arguing, for fighting, for caring. This was a race against time. But the thought of them heading out without her was unacceptable. Leaving them to fend for themselves, trusting this dead weight to have their backs? Not a damn chance. She'd rather be miserable in a group than let them go into danger without her. They were a bother, yes, but they were her ball and chain. There was no way in hell that she'd let Elliot and Benjamin go without her.
Finally, with a deep, reluctant sigh, “Fine. But let's get one thing straight: if he screws this up, or either of you die, it's on you.” She shot this drifter a pointed look, making it clear that if he was more trouble than he was worth, she wouldn’t hesitate to cut him loose. Then she turned, grabbed her machete—which she'd stuck in the ground—and marched off without looking back. “And keep up.”
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They'd been walking for hours now. And Juniper was still fuming. The only time during their journey that anger hadn't festered in her bones like a deadly promise was when she parted with her brother.
Viktor.
He'd glanced at her one last time before securing his backpack. His usual stoic demeanor momentarily cracking—unnoticeable for anyone else, but not to her. She smiled softly, though it didn't reach her eyes. It was bittersweet. She had waited for him at Riverside. Waited years. And now, so soon after reuniting, they were splitting up again. But she couldn't leave Elliot and Benjamin in someone else's hands. She couldn’t abandon them. Juniper knew Viktor could take care of himself—and of Cordelia, if needed. There was no doubt about that.
He placed a firm hand on her shoulder, and she covered it with her own. Then—without warning—he pulled her into a tight embrace. It was brief, much too short for her liking. But for him, knowing him, it was long enough to let her know he meant it. “Stay out of trouble”, he muttered, perfectly aware of whom exactly he was talking to.
She grinned, “And miss out on all the fun? Trouble might as well be my second name.” But she understood him without words. He meant: Stay alive. Before she could say or do anything else, however, he already took a few steps back. With a nod and a certain twitch at the corner of his mouth, he turned and walked away. Her chest tightened as she watched his retreating form. Her lips pressed tightly together as tears threatened to form in the corners of her eyes. A familiar sadness settled in her heart—one that had remained after losing her baby. One that she had learned to swallow down. But this time was different. Loss had made her realize how fragile time was. How many regrets she already carried. She refused to add another.
Without thinking, she ran after him. “Vik!” He barely had time to turn before she crashed into him, arms wrapping around his middle in a fierce embrace. And her fingers clasped onto his clothes as if she held on for dear life. “If you dare die”, she murmured against his shoulder, voice thick, “I swear, I’ll kill you myself.” Pulling away, she met his gaze and forced herself to smile. “Take care of Cordelia”, she said, a tilt of her head, “And let her take care of you.” Juniper tugged off one of her leather bracelets and took his hand, looping the worn strap around his wrist before tying it securely. “So you don’t forget—We’ll see each other again.” She stepped back before she could lose her nerve.
Then, she turned toward Cordelia, who stood a few feet away, watching quietly. Juniper reached out and took her hand, squeezing it gently. For their relationship, this was a hug. “Stay alive”, Juniper told her, her voice softer now. “Find your sister.” Another squeeze from Cordelia and her promise of seeing each other again soon. Juniper released her hand and, without looking back, walked away. She didn’t need to. Because this time, she knew—somewhere, somehow—she would see them again.
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A gust of wind whipped against her face, yanking her back to the present. Juniper blinked, the memory dissolving like mist as she focused on the road ahead. She walked ahead of the group, scouting with machete in hand, movements sharp and efficient. But when she glanced back, when she saw the way Elliot trudged forward—determined, yes, but still too soft, still too him—something twisted in her chest. His blue eyes scanned his surroundings, the same blue eyes that captivated her from the very first moment they met. That disarmed her with a single glance.
Damn it.
She exhaled sharply, marched straight at him, and before he could react, she grabbed him by the arm, yanking him to a stop. “Move ahead”, she told Nakoma, barely sparing her a glance. She didn't need an audience for this. So she waited until the others walked on before turning to Elliot, her fingers curled around his sleeve for a second before she let go. “You can still go back.” A lie. They both knew that. Riverside was too far behind them. But she needed to say it, to try, to have him tap out. “I'll even come with you.” As if he'd even listen.
She swallowed, her jaw tight, “You don’t know what you're doing out here”, she pressed, her voice nothing more than a growl, “What do you think this is, some kind of picnic? That you can just stroll around and survive?” Frustration bled into every word as she didn’t give him any chance to answer. “You don't know how to deal with them, Elliot.” His eyes again—that quiet, steady gaze—that made her want to shake him. Made her want to— “If something happens to you, then—” The words caught in her throat, her breath hitched. She looked away, her fingers slid through her hair. Then what, Juniper? Then you'll have to live with it. Then you won't ever forgive yourself. Then you'll lose him. Then you'll always wonder ‘what if.’ The words felt too heavy in her mouth.
She clenched her jaw, ready to shove the feeling down—until Nakoma’s voice drifted from ahead. Juniper didn’t even catch the full sentence, just enough to make her blood ignite. She snapped her head back toward Elliot, eyes dark, dangerous. “You listen to me”, came a snarl—her hand strained around the grip of her weapon. You belong to me. “Not to anyone else.” It wasn't any truth that she was ready to name. Elliot wasn’t just another person in this world, not to her. And that was the problem. That had always been the problem. She could lose everyone else. But not him. Not him. “Got it?” Her breathing was too fast, as if she'd run for miles. Before she did something reckless, like tell him the truth, she turned away from him. “We should keep moving.”