Malikx

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• Chasing1D

  Hiii love,
  
  I'm.. better. Yeh.
  It's going much better because as you can see.. last year around this time it was a bit.. hopeless I guess. I was hopeless, I guess.. Although I'm still that overcaring, sensitive person.. But that's who I always was & always will be.. I guess I have to find my balance & don't care too much about people their opinions & stuff x
  
  So.. I'm fine. Although I'm afraid for the holiday, actually :c
  Everyone is looking forward for it but I'll probably will be sitting home for atleast a month, like heyyyy.. On internet & stuff aha! The group is planning a meeting so I hope I can go, meet Linzy & others (: x
  
  That doesn't matter! Me too, I'm glad! I always feel loved, when someone hugs me.. But truly when you do (: x
  
  Maybe just because you're tired.. You need to find a way to feel alive again.. Like seriously alive, not just breathing, but actually living!
  It may sound stupid, but when I went with that guy on his -brommer-, yesterday.. I felt pretty alive. It was so cool, although it just was like 5 minutes. It's something I would've never done before, so I'm pretty proud of myself.. You need to find these things too. That can be little things, yk.. Like watching the stars! May sound cheesy, but it's lovely to watch them & appreciate the beauty (:
  
  Yeh, I can imagine how it's like, everytime again! But as you know, like that Saturday -which I liked!-, you can always come at my place too yk! Sleeping over.. I don't know but like just coming is already cool! xo
  Maybe that's cooler, because then we're not with just the two of us, but also my parents & bro & sis.. Maybe you like that hmm-' x
  
  I care.
  
  Haha! I see hehe! She's a cutie! x
  Does she get along with your other cat? -I lost the name sorry- x
  
  Do it, if you're tired! Don't stay awake to.. stay awake. Just go to your bed & sleep well! It'll be good for you!
  
  

  

  
  
  -wow, this was much longer than I expected to be-
  
  I love you too <3 x

  1 decennium geleden
• GiveMeZayn

  

  
  You don't know me, but i wanted to make you smile (:
  
  

  I can't pretend
  To know how you feel
  But know that I'm here
  Know that I'm real
  Say what you want
  Or don't talk at all
  I'm not gonna let you fall
  Reach for my hand
  'Cause it's held out for you
  My shoulders are small
  But you can cry on them too..
  
  Remember your beautiful <3

  1 decennium geleden
• Miss_Styles

  Fijne Pasen!
  
  
  
  

  

  1 decennium geleden
• Chasing1D

  Hi,
  
  It is gonna happen. I promise you.
  
  Ofcourse aha! Oh like that.. Well yeah.
  It'll be great.
  
  Well yeah. It's not sad, it's reality. And maybe I just don't fit by him or he doesn't fits with me. Maybe I'm too young or maybe we're just not each others type. It's just weird to think that so many say it is.. But yk. Like I said, you don't only fit with one person, I guess.
  
  I just wanted to get it from my heart because that's been going around for a long while. I just want him to be happy, but it hurts to know it isn't with me. I can't handle it but I know I have to.. Well yeah. Don't worry about it, this is happening already for a long while.
  
  It's just weird to think you've been there with them all evening yk. Because yk, you know me & you know he's the guy I'm in love with but he's there with another girl, you know too. It's kinda.. a very strange situation.
  
  But yeh, don't worry. I'll be alright, I guess.
  
  I hope that. Because you truly deserve it.
  Fight against them. Don't give up, they'll go away. I know that. But not if you let them win.
  
  That doesn't matters if it isn't that long. There's not that much to say then, I guess.. I just need these things from my heart & it's hard.
  
  Can you do me a favor? I'm gonna ask you it already now, because yk.. 24th april someone precious to me died.. you probably know the story & stuff & I'm still having a hard time about it.. I'll be in the hospital that evening because I have to sleep there yk -onderzoek, niets erg ofzo-
  
  Can you text me he's proud of me? I know that, because he told me the last time I saw him but it'd mean a lot if someone else would tell me that.. x
  
  

  

  
  
  I love you too, love. x

  1 decennium geleden
• Chasing1D

  Hi, my lovely moon.
  
  You're not but I understand what you're saying.
  You are pretty.
  They once told me that hapiness isn't the goal. It's the way you're going.
  It's about reminding yourself about things that make you happy. They told me you can decide yourself when you're happy.. x
  
  No, it doesn't. They're putting you through all this shit & you'll get rewarded for that. I promise.
  
  Haha yes!
  I don't know yet how it'll end but yk. I actually have a great feeling about this one.. Although I have to write on my Harry fanfic but yk.. I just don't feel like writing on it :c
  Aw, thank you. Same over here.
  Haha, we can't, indeed!
  Indeed hahahaha! (:
  
  Don't feel guilty. I can't keep avoiding this yk.
  It's okay if you feel like you don't see such things.. I was just wondering because yk.. Now you saw him, you met him yk.. Does he knows you know me? Probably you didn't talked about that but ya never know I guess.
  I don't know.. My parents told me he really fits with me & our choir tried to couple us 2 years ago but yk.. You don't only fit with one person, I guess so..
  
  I hope he's happy.. I really do.
  
  Yes, but let me tell you.. 3 Years ago he had also a girl that liked him so they became a couple but he never really was in love with her. He just liked her yk. So why would he do that again?
  
  It doesn't makes sense, but hey.. maybe that's me.
  
  It's okay.. I cried more times about him so it doesn't matters.
  I never knew how much I loved him until I saw that pic of him & Cleo. I cried & cried & cried in my mum's arms & I went to bed & couldn't sleep so I sat downstairs, watching glee -trying to get my mind of it- and fell asleep around 5AM in the couch.
  So yk.. I need to forget him but it's so damn hard.
  
  Don't feel broken. Please. She's not worth it.
  
  Yes, there is. There is a lovely girl that doesn't sees how beautiful she is. A girl that always puts others first & cares a lot more about others than herself. I see a girl who deserves to be happy. I see a girl that became one of the best friends ever. I see a girl that's one of the most amazing people on this world. I see you. So babe, look at yourself, like I do. Because it's such an amazing view.. Say fuck them, because 'you'.. is pretty amazing too..
  
  That's what's there. She tries to build herself up & it won't work always. But keep trying love, small steps. Always small steps. There will be things that will knock you down but hey.. There's always others that are there to catch you. We'll help you, don't forget that.
  
  

  

  
  
  No, it's not the same. Indeed. You always showed me you cared and always been there for me. Thank you, my Zayn. Thank you.
  
  Indeed. Stuck. Always.
  
  I love you, Pooh. x

  1 decennium geleden