Malikx

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• Chasing1D

  I know I don't have to make this always up & I know I have to forget him but this..
  
  This aren't my thoughs
  
  This is what my heart says & I can't change a lot about that, I guess..
  
  I hope he's happy with her.. That's the most important thing, right?
  
  I'm wishing he's happy while my heart is broken. That's what love is right? Wishing someone else the best, even though it kills you..
  
  But I guess you can love more people than just one. I just really hoped it would be him. I just really hoped that.

  1 decennium geleden
• Chasing1D

  Hiii,
  
  Yes, yes indeed.
  
  I didn't went.. My sis & her friend went while me & my parents went in Antwerp.. walking around.. :c
  
  Whut? Diet.. C'mon girl :c
  I guess it's good if you wanna eat healthy & be healthy but yk.. Not because you'd be fat because you're not.
  
  Oh that's greaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat! That's really good (:
  
  Yeh, I know what you mean.. It gets a lot attention & stuff indeed but I like it. It's written amazing & you keep being interested.. It makes me wanna write myself, so I guess that's a good thing? x
  
  Great.. Good you had fine.
  No fine, that you say this. I need to accept it.. But tell me.. One thing.. Only one thing..
  Do you think they're a lovely couple? I mean.. That they actually fit together..
  
  I just wanna know that.. I wanna know sure he's happy, even though I'm not.
  
  I don't forget him but okay. I saw him cycling today with his friend but he didn't saw me.
  I'm glad he didn't saw me but atleast I had the confrontation that yk.. I saw him.
  
  

  I hate him for that, that he did that to you but you have to know maybe he wanna be friends with you and thats better?

  
  
  Wow the last made me cry so hard.. I know that. I know that. He wants to friends with me, that's the whole point. I hate being the underdog & just being 'that' friend of his. I don't even know if he actually is my friend. We barely talk on choir & he talks with me when I walk home with him. When I texted him. That made me fell in love with him. He's so caring & lovely & he accepts me yk? Wow, I'm actually crying atm but okay. He accepts me & actually listens. He has respect for me & I feel complete when I'm around him.. I feel like I can be completely myself & I feel like I can show myself. I don't have that feeling a lot so.. I hate seeing him being with other girls.. I hate it.
  
  It just fucking sucks that he started giving me hope.. I mean, it looked that way?
  And then suddenly he has a gf like.. where did that came from?
  
  I hate it. I just wanna be lucky one time.. Okay just one time. But that's the sad thing, I know he'll never look at me the way I look at him..
  
  People keep telling me he's not worth it & honestly.. I always feel like I'm not good enough for him. He's like so amazing & his gf's are always pretty & nice & talented..
  
  I know you're gonna say that I'm that way too.. But it's not. I'll never be good enough to be in a relationship with him.. That's the most awful thing about whole this situation
  
  I know I'll never be more than friends with him & that sucks because I love him with whole my heart. I never loved anyone more than I love him & it just sucks that it's always other girls..
  
  Still crying, but I'm still breathing I guess.
  
  That sucks the most. I though his was my Niall & it sucks that it'll never be. That sucks the most.. It's an lovely text you wrote & I know it's true but I can't handle this yet. I can't hear ppl say that it's better we're staying friends. Because my heart breaks even more.. even more.
  
  Hopefully. It's not official but I know we'll do it..
  Yeh.. Hopefully. But it won't be this holiday so probably in the summer.. I hope.
  
  Yeh, okay. That's fine.
  Yes, but you can't ask him to stop contacting the person he's in love with.. I guess. Even when it's a total bitch.. But enjoy the moments you have together when they're not talking with each other. x
  
  Don't put your feelings in it. Did she answered already?
  If she doesn't, she's just not worth it.
  
  

  

  
  
  Same over here, girl.. Same over here.. x
  
  Sorry for the long text.. again. I just really needed to get it from my heart.

  1 decennium geleden
• Chasing1D

  Hiii Pooh,
  
  Long time ago since I called you like that aha
  
  Missing you too (:
  I was in Antwerp today with my parents & my sis & her friend.. Well we haven't seen a lot.. We wanted to go to the shops & stuff but when we finally arrived, my sis called my dad that they were already finished at the fashion museum.. So we went back.. I had an ice cream though.
  
  Oh.. Can't you do smt there? I mean, you don't have to stay inside all the time, right?
  But I guess doing smt in your own isn't that much fun either.. sometimes.
  
  I was reading 'After' last night, after picking up my bro from the airport.. It's so amazing but I can't find the full translated version into Dutch so I read until chapter 71 & now I'm reading the English - original version.. It's addicting so yeh.. x
  
  I'm fine. Well, I saw Cleo today, at the tram.
  I felt so.. I don't know. It's maybe good I had this confrontation like 'okay, this is his gf', although I kinda know her but okay. She looked in my direction, but didn't smiled. I guess she doesn't recognized me.. maybe that's the best.
  
  But I haven't really though about him the last week, so I guess that's smt good, right?
  The only that annoys me, is things that made my heart beat faster & gave me hope.. Even a week before that pic was on fb & they were already together before so yk. That's heartbreaking, knowing he was giving me hope while he already had a gf. I guess he doesn't realizes how those things make my heart beat faster.. Well, he doesn't has to do anything to make my heart beat faster. I guess that's the problem, but I'll be over it.. Hope so..
  
  So my dad was like talking about London & stuff. So we came at the idea that I'm gonna go with him for a couple of days to London. Some quality time with my dad. I don't know if we're actually gonna do that but I said I keep him on it.. so we'll see
  
  Wow, long explenation haha!
  
  What have you done today? x
  Except being bored & probably irritated by Sofie.. but yeh
  
  

  

  
  
  I love you too, Zayn <3

  1 decennium geleden
• Chasing1D

  Hiiii,
  
  Ohhh party all day all night! Nice, have fun bbi!
  Ohhhh great (:
  Noooooooooooooo o:
  What kind of cat is it?
  
  

  

  
  
  It's cute, indeed n.n
  Love you too. x

  1 decennium geleden
• Niallerslove

  's okay
  Yeah it's going alright, could be better 'fcourse but yeah
  x

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