People don't change
you just get to know them better.
People don't forgive
they just forget what happened.
People don't hate
they just don't know all your sides.
People do love
and that's all what counts.
She stared out of the window. The little girl was holding her teddybear. She was holding it thight, afraid that she might lose it. A tear met her cheek. She already lost everything, everything she loved. They all let her down, for what? In her eyes, she did not do something wrong. But through other eyes, she bet they saw the devil. The person who ruined their lives and broke their hearts. 'But who says it was my fault?' she whispers. Spoken words that will never be heard.
She know she dissapointed them. It was not on purpose, it just.. happened. She despises herself. "It just happened" was the sentence she hated the most. Nothing just happened. Everything happened for a reason, she was convinced by that. But for this time, it did just happen. 'I hate you', she said. Another tear walked down her cheek until it met her mouth and she tasted salt. The taste of grief and pain. She was willing to sacrifice her heart if necessary. And yes, it was necessary that evertything turned back as it was before her mistake. She had a choice, for the first time. Maybe that's the main reason for her fatal error: she just did not know how to deal with choices. Right or left? Black or white? Yin or Yang? Heaven or hell? Well, she thought, that last one was not hard to decide. She would have chosen for hell, because the torturous flames would make her realise what she had done. She opened the window and the wind touches her softly.
She knew everybody will miss her and pretend that it is such a shame, but they will be happy that she is gone. She has never been so sure about something.
Her feet do not feel the ground. Her hair waves in the golden sun. At the moment she jumped, she know her last choice was finally made.
It's time to be happy again.
