OnyxBoy

i want to write a novel about silence,
and the things people don't say.

i used to fill every thought bubble
with ideas of death
but now i just want to keep your hand
in mine for the rest of all time
and now i never want to die



That little kiss you stole, it held my heart and soul.
And like a ghost in the silence, I disappear.
Don't try to fight the storm,
you'll tumble overboard.
Tides will bring me back to you.



i'm bigger than my body,
i'm colder than this home,
i'm meaner than my demons,
i'm bigger than these bones.

would've been
could've been
should've been


We try and run away, but end up running back.

xxx

Look at me,
who am I supposed to be,
and what do I believe?
Just look at me.
Am I the image of your hopes and tragedies?
And I just don't know,
no I just don't know,
who I'm supposed to be.

And then I found out how hard it is to really change.
Even hell can get comfy once you've settled in.
I just wanted the lonely inside me to leave.
No matter how fucked you get, there's always hell when you come back down.
The funny thing is all I ever wanted I already had.
There's glimpses of heaven in every day.
In the friends I have, the music I make, the love that I feel.
I just had to start again.




Well you could,
lock me up in your heart and throw away the key.
Won't you take me out of my head?

I've got a secret,
it's on the tip of my tongue,
it's on the back of my lungs.
And I'm gonna keep it.
I know something you don't know.

If today was your last day,
and tomorrow was too late,
could you say goodbye to yesterday?

And on my death bed, all I'll see is you,
The life may leave my lungs, but my heart will stay with you.

Science may have found a cure for most evils; but it has found no remedy for the worst of them all - the apathy of human beings.

and all the kids cried out;
'please stop, you're scaring me,'
i can't help this awful energy
goddamn right,
you should be scared of me
who is in control?