MarijeR

Gastenboek (3087)

• LeaFlammae

  This part tho
  
  Lust is indiscriminate (and stupid beyond the telling) but it does in this case possess superlative taste. Want, however…it is selective, he knew, but the criteria has changed and perhaps the scale by which degree can be measured. He wanted Dean when he smiled and laughed and argued and scowled his displeasure, miserably sick in his bed, when he'd watch Dean sleep, unwilling to look away for fear the fever would take him away, when he'd count every breath while remembering the eternity that they had stopped. He wants Dean now and the measure can only be defined as 'more', but it has nothing at all to do with whatever quality or lack thereof there may or not be in how he looks; his beauty is beyond compare whatever skin he may wear. He could look at Dean forever and never grow bored.

  8 jaar geleden
• LeaFlammae

  WELL THEN (het is nu een paar dagen later dus de Feels zijn wel wat minder sterk aanwezig maar...)
  
  Srsly van alle Dramatische En Emotionele dingen in dat verhaal was de scene waar ik bijna in tranen uitbarstte.......de scene........ waarin Nate (aka mr. Internalized Homophobia, Much Gossiped About By The Entire Camp, Its Really Very Sad) vertelt over zijn connectie met het Winchester House (its a thing) dat hij heeft gerenoveerd en dat blijkbaar een Elder God is die hier is gekomen doordat een of andere idioot een gat in de tijdruimte had geknipt..... en goden groeien en veranderen normaal gesproken niet maar terwijl hij het huis aan het renoveren was vormden ze een connectie en het kwam erachter dat het het fijn vond om een huis te zijn???? en het hielp Nate de hele tijd like, als hij naar een bepaalde kamer wilde dan creëerde het huis die / een trap ernaar of whatever, en het beschermde hem.......op een gegeven moment kwam hij ergens terecht waar hij niet kon bestaan (omdat het buiten de werkelijkheid was ofzo idk, ik denk het gat in de werkelijkheid waar het Huis uit was gekomen) en dus deed nate POEF en het huis was van 'OH NEE' en paniekte en ging terug in de tijd om zijn dna te bekijken en zette hem weer in elkaar!!!! EN. En toen kwamen Lucifer's Misborn (een soort extra angstaanjagende, super sadistische hellhounds, not cool) omdat Lucifer alle goden wilde vermoorden of verjagen en de misborn vonden nate wel interessant want hij had een stukje van het Huis in hem van toen het hem repareerde...... (en het huis een stukje van hem) en ze jaagden op hem en uiteindelijk trickte het Huis ze zodat Nate kon ontsnappen maar het Huis levend werd opgegeten ;__; en toen sleepten ze het naar Lucifer die wilde weten wtf er zo speciaal was aan Nate en het huis was van 'nope' en het zou kunnen ontsnappen naar zijn eigen dimensie maar dat wilde het niet want dan zou het deel ervan dat in nate was ook verdwijnen en so it let lucifer kill it ...... oh mijn god deze uitleg faalt. iT WAS VERY EMOTIONAL OK.
  
  Look heres a piece of explanation on the house:
  
  "And even for a willing agent of the Old Ones, the designer was very unpleasant," Cas confirms. "In any case, his very timely consumption meant that Winchester House was never completed, but as happens when one indulges in mystical cosmic horror without knowing what you're doing, Winchester House developed sentience and one assumes sapience as well. Which is fortunate in this case; currently, it acts as a living--for several contradictory values of 'living'--seal over the dimensional tear and substantially lowers the risk of several dimensions pouring into each other in an uncontrolled manner and destroying a significant portion of spacetime."
  
  Everyone nods, Dean included; yeah, no one wants…spacetime destroyed, Christ.
  
  EN EN EN
  
  "Distracted for a hundred years by painting?"
  
  "I'd take breaks," Nate says uncertainly. "Go for a walk, check out the other rooms. It liked showing me around, and there was a lot to show. You'd be surprised how much."
  
  "I wouldn't," Cas says, underlining how much this conversation went somewhere Dean's not sure anyone saw coming at any point in their lives. "How many floors did you discover?"
  
  Nate thinks for a minute. "Maybe sixteen, but could be twenty or thirty. Parallel stairs make things weird and they'd go backward sometimes. It got easier when I explained numbers to it; it didn't know about organizing things like that, thought it was pretty cool."
  
  "He never got lost," Mira says, punctuating that with adamant nodding. "Never. Always got exactly where he wanted to go."
  
  Nate wrinkles his nose. "As long as I was clear about that, yeah. One day, though, went in the front door straight into the attic. My fault: I was distracted by top floor being…sort of half not there, and it was distracted by--something, not sure. It brought it back when I--uh." His eyes unfocus. "There were these giant windows, even the ceiling was windows, and outside it was…."
  
  "Nate?"
  
  He shakes himself. "Then we were back in the room I was painting before and--it was really upset. I never worked out what was up with that. I think it didn't like me so close to the windows or something, never did explain."
  
  "It must have liked you," Cas says into the silence, voice soft.
  
  "It thought it was made wrong," Nate says, staring at the back of the chair in front of him and Dean notes Zack staring at Nate from a few feet away with an expression you'd have to be blind to miss. "There was nothing wrong with it. It--it just needed a few repairs, and it's not like it was hard to do them once it showed me how to see them. Once a room was fixed, it stayed put, and it really liked that, didn't have to--you know, chase them down anymore." He starts to smile, and Dean tries to remember if Nate's ever looked quite that happy before.
  
  "The rooms stayed when you were done fixing them?" Cas says curiously.
  
  "Yeah," Nate confirms, and Dean gets the feeling this conversation could use something, like--something. "Then tourists could come in and talk about how cool and weird it was and it loved hearing that."
  
  Cas tilts his head. "It liked being a house."
  
  "It's really into it, yeah," Nate agrees. "We had a lot of fun."
  
  HET HELE GEDOE OVER DAT HUIS WAS GEWOON ZO COOL
  
  
  Also cas misses Gabriel arghhhh
  
  oh mijn god ik realiseer me dat erover praten echt hopeloos is want alles heeft extra uitleg nodig om ook maar enigszins vagelijk sense te maken en dan nog faal ik :')))
  
  Ahh de struggle
  
  Alicia was in de mob that tried to kill cas and cas doesnt know it but now she's told dean and he's like 'SHIT' want hij weet niet wat hij ermee moet want Alicia is AWESOME maar als hij haar ermee weg laat komen moet hij Micah & co er ook mee weg laten komen en sjdgnjkd i'm very upset
  
  Ondertussen is nog steeds niemand erachter dat Dean niet Fearless Leader Dean is (behalve Cas & Chuck & blijkbaar een aantal demonen waaronder Crowley...) maar tbh ik heb een voorgevoel dat Alicia erachter gaat komen want ze is Alicia. Honestly thats the only reason. She will know because of sheer alicia-ness.
  
  (see? doesnt make sense. argh.)
  
  Het zou misschien logischer zijn om over mijn destiel feels te praten maar honestly i'm just obsessed with her OC's. So yeah. :')))))

  8 jaar geleden
• LeaFlammae

  (plus ik had boek 1 al eerder gelezen dus die heb ik overgeslagen haha) maar ja ok it was a lot :') En je hebt geen idee hoeveel moeite ik soms heb moeten doen om je niet vol te spammen met quotes en FEELS want uh yeah. NATE x WINCHESTER HOUSE 5 EVER. (now that's a scentence i never thought i would say..........)
  i'm just ajsdghjdkghjgjdnrsj I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS
  
  Btw this is a Very Important Art Page
  
  http://archiveofourown.org/works/2560289/chapters/5811167
  
  Waarschuwing: uncomfortably sexy hippos
  (de uitleg is ook hilarisch omg)
  (en de bijbehorende scene still kills me)
  
  "'From the murky depths they emerged slick and gleaming in the spill of moonlight, deepening shadows like crevices between each mound of delicately rounded flesh, as if arching into a willing hand.'" Cas stops, closing his eyes with a shudder that Dean and Vera share. "It's a metaphor."

  8 jaar geleden
• LeaFlammae

  ...wel i mean dat hangt er een beetje vanaf met welke boeken je het vergelijkt x) Because i mean, SOME books........ not naming any names.......MILLENIUM TRILOGIE.........

  8 jaar geleden
• LeaFlammae

  ...............i read everything there is so far and am now officially in the stage of 'every song ever is DtA somehow. sOMEHOW.'
  
  in other words: AFKICKTIJD
  
  wanneer update ze weer? WHO KNOWS. DE LAATSTE UPDAtE WAS LIKE 2 WEKEN GELEDEN
  
  i can't deal with this
  
  *gaat fanfiction of the fanfiction lezen*
  
  *meanwhile Grenade starts on my playlist*
  
  Me: NO

  8 jaar geleden