19.

Sophie:
"My love life.." he says while sighing and looking at his hands. "I'm single for a year now."
He looks at me with a little smile on his face.
"My last relationship was complicated."

"Aren't all relationships complicated?" A soft laugh leaves my mouth as I make eye contact with him.
"I don't know." He says, shrugging his shoulders. "I don't think so. I think love shouldn't be that hard."

His words make me a little uncomfortable. I never had an easy love, it's always hard, complicated, never easy.
"Maybe." I stammer.

"When will you go back to LA?" I change the subject.
"We don't know yet. We came back to spend some time with friends and family. And we have to work on some things with Gustav and Georg. And we are looking for a house here."

"But you are not staying here? Why do you need a house?"
"We need a little more privacy than our old room in our moms house." He laughs.
"I understand." I smile back at him.
"How is your mom? I haven't seen her in years."

When the twins first left, I did visit their mom a few times, she basically was a second mom to me. Weird how things change..


Sophie (flashback):
We walk from the bus stop to the school. Me, Tom and Bill.
It's Bills first day back in school and I can tell he is nervous.

"Can we sit here for a moment?" Bill asks, pointing a the bench. I nod and sit down next to him. "Don't worry Bill, no one even looked at us since.." I don't finish the sentence, I don't have to.

Tom sits down next to me and I can feel his leg touching mine.
We haven't talked about what happened. It's like it never happened at all.

"We should go." I say, looking at Bill. He gets up and I follow him to the school gate. I hook my arm into his as we walk through the gate, towards the hallway.
We quickly get our books from our lockers before we walk to the classroom where our first period is.

School was fine. Other than a few people staring at Bill nothing happened. Maybe it's finally over? Since the last incident, nothing happened. Not like anyone talks to us, but I don't really care about that.

After school they took me with them to the studio. It's been a few weeks since they were able to make any music at all.

I sit down on the little couch in the studio, listening to the new song they are trying to finish.

I look up and look straight into Tom's eyes. I quickly look away but I can feel his eyes burning on my skin.
I look up again, our eyes locking for a few seconds before he looks away this time.

Maybe? No, I shake that thought away, it's not the time to make up things in my head. We are friends, just friends. Tom will never like me the way I like him, and I have to except that.

"What do you think?" I get pulled out of my thoughts by Bill excited yet slightly insecure voice.
"Sounds good!" I say, not wanting to admit I didn't really focus on the song.

"You don't like it?" Bill asks, noticing my lack of enthousiasm.
"I do! Can you play it again? I love it."
Bill gets a little cute smile on his face and they start playing the song again and this time I'm actually listening.


Sophie (current):
"How is Tom?" I ask him. I know I'm ignoring Tom, but I can't deny that he crosses my mind more than I like it. My 15 year old self would slap me in the face right now. I dreamed about him confessing his feelings for me so many times, but now that it's actually happening it gives me mixed feelings.

I'm with Marco. I can't just dump him for something that might be a fling. What if Tom doesn't want me as bad anymore once he had me?

"He's okay, but..." Bill looks at me and his eyes speak, he doesn't need to say the words. He knows... He knows what happened. He knows that I kissed Tom.
"I know you kissed him, again."

I lower my eyes, fixing them on the almost empty cup in front of me. "It was a mistake, I don't know why I did that."

"Maybe you have feelings for him too? You don't just kiss someone."
I look up, making eye contact with him and shake my head. "I don't have feelings for Tom. I used to... I guess that's why. I was just confused."

Bill nods as he looks into my eyes intently.
"Why would you kiss someone else if you are in an happy relationship?"
This question takes me off guard. "Uhm.." I stutter and shrug my shoulders.

"Like I said, it was a mistake."
Bill nods and looks at me with a little smile on his face. "You want another coffe?"
I nod. "Yes, please."

I got home again, starting dinner immediately.
I lost time talking to Bill and I only have 30 minutes left to get dinner ready.
So it has to be something quick and easy.

I grab pastasaus out of the freezer and put it in the microwave, slowly defrosting it while I boil the pasta.

Dinner was ready just in time. I learned how to perfectly time everything, no matter what it is I have to make.

As we sit down on the table together, we eat in silence. I can see it on his face that he had a bad day. "How was your day?" I ask him in a soft voice.

He looks at me, his eyes dark and I sit still, completely frozen.
"The pastasaus it to salty." He says, avoiding my question.
"It's the same one as last week, I took it from the freezer."

He slams the palm of his hand on the table, the fork he is holding making a hard noise.
I jump a little and close my eyes briefly.
"I'm sorry, it will never happen again." I say quickly, referring to the pastasaus.