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• Leodh

  kay so remember that convo we had a while ago where you mentioned how sometimes you just want to share some heavy shit without people responding like "🥺🥺oooohhh nooo bbygirl wat eeeeeeeeeeeerg. dat moet zoooo zwaar zijn" en "wow wtf lieke". uno reverse bitch now it's my turn
  
  hey wassup
  

  i am having a really bad day en de intrusive suicidal thoughts are there and pleentyful and it is just so fokking heavy to keep bearing every time it happens. i made a good decision today (tm) and bought some picture frames to hang on my wall and decorate my room with more pink, cos that generally makes me happy, and i made a questionable decision (tm) buying some cocktaildrink-thing cos i was like "alcohol can't make the situation worse and some woozy-ness instead of the kill-urself-vibes did sound like a good idea.
  today is just a fucking bag of shit. and it's hard generally, and harder still cos it's 210 DAYS before a good psych has an opening for me. WE ARE LAUGHING COS OTHERWISE WE'RE thinking (intrusive) TW shit thats nsfw YAY
  for your sanity; i have no plans, or actual want to hurt or kill myself. got way too many stories to share with the world. but a break from what i'm carrying sounds real nice, which is why the thoughts keep coming back when i'm having a hard time. i am safe. just. frustrated, tired, and one of my picture frames is not hanging where i actually want it.
  i'd post something random about it in the LJH, but i don't want to worry people and i also am way too burnt out to deal with the "omg are you okay bby????" messages.

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• Leodh

  ASDFGHJKL stop making me blush so hard
  (thank you🥰❤️✨💕)
  you too u know)

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• Frodo

  ... you really want the lychee profile pic back huh?

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• Lysander

  

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• Frodo

  OH NO YOU DIDN'T MY USERNAME IS ICONIC

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