Malikx

Gastenboek (1731)

• Chasing1D

  Hi Pooh,
  
  Oh babe. I just wish..
  You don't deserve this at all ;o
  
  You are doing good, for me.
  You're the only 'real' life friend I had, when I had it hard.
  Ofcourse Niallerslove was there too, but you know what I mean.
  
  Always if I come home after meeting up with you or seeing you, I'm happy.
  I'm happy I've got a friend like you.
  You have no idea how happy I was when I met you.
  
  That's the spirit. Be yourself.
  That means the ppl who deserve you, will love you.
  
  Can you believe I'm almost crying right now?
  I always feel so bad if I discover others feel bad.
  I don't want that.
  I don't care how unhappy I am/was, you don't deserve this.
  You deserve to be happy.
  You really do.
  
  I won't go away.
  That's a promise.
  
  I love you my precious

  1 decennium geleden
• Chasing1D

  Hi Pooh,
  Here I am..
  
  .. I wanna understand what's going around in your mind.
  Oh love. I don't get why. You're amazing!
  I think I can see who you are.. Behind those walls.. I mean.
  I feel comfortable with you, feel like I can be completely myself.
  I don't have that with a lot of ppl.. So...
  
  You don't deserve it. Nobody does.
  You're doing good for everyone! You know, that you already find from yourself that you're doing right is good.
  Be proud of that & no matter what ppl think, atleast you're being yourself..
  
  

  Than they laugh maybe more cause I can't handle it.

  
  
  Sadly, that's the truth
  There are ppl that wanna understand it, be sure you let them in! x
  
  I love you Pooh,
  You're fucking amazing.

  1 decennium geleden
• Chasing1D

  Hi Pooh,
  Oh honey.
  It sounds hard, it is.. But I've heard that before.
  I understand.
  
  I know the feeling. I know the feeling.
  That you feel you're not good enough, never get compliments, lose everyone where you're close to, feel empty and stupid, guilty, alone, messed up, fucked up,..
  I've felt that way and I still struggle with it, everyday.
  Every fucking day.
  I know how you feel.
  It doesn't sounds strange to me. They saved my life too, even though I didn't really about killing myself.
  They're just always there and make you smile, even if you don't want to.
  I know how it feels.
  I fucking know it and I knew that you had it hard, I didn't knew it was only getting worser.
  I don't even talk about them.
  My class knows I love them but they don't understand what they mean to us.
  They fucking don't understand it.
  I try to understand you babe, I really do.
  Next time if we meet up, you're going to tell me everything.
  I need to know what's going around in your head and heart.
  I fucking need to know it.
  And if you cry, it's okay.
  
  

  They think I'm a happy girl but nobody can see my fake smile and sometimes that hurts me to

  
  
  Oh dear. o:
  I understand you love, even not your best friend? I always forget her name, sorry ;c
  
  Love you till the end Pooh.
  You're fucking important to me.

  1 decennium geleden
• Chasing1D

  Hi my Pooh,
  I had.. But that doesn't mean, I don't wanna listen to your problems ;o
  

  I don't like to disturb people with my problems.

  
  Me neither, it's like you don't know if they'll care or not. I get that, but please do.
  I try to understand you, please talk about it then too with me.
  I care about you.
  More than you know.
  So much more than you think.
  It's in your head, I know but there is reality in it.
  You don't think up. It's not fantasy.
  There is a lot of stuff but I don't know how to typ it. I will say it you someday.
  Good, and if you do. Tell me everything. I mean it love.
  Oeh Alex Agnewww! Right!
  I'm not home 28th. Surgery for my eyes, and 29th I'll be recovering a bit but further, I'm free (:
  
  I love you so so so much, never forget that please.
  Never

  1 decennium geleden
• Chasing1D

  Please tell me how you feel and think.
  When I saw you, I don't know but it feels different.
  There's something different about you and I can't explain what.
  So if there's something wrong, please tell me
  Tell me what happened, how you think, feel/felt,..
  Please.
  I know we didn't meet up already more than a month and I feel reallyyyyyyy guilty about that so ;o
  I don't want the fact, that you feel not telling me how you feel.
  I'm thinking about it, uhm.
  Next week, I don't know if I have to go away then..
  In the vacation, what are you doing then and where are you then? ;c
  o: x
  Or somewhere next weeks, on a friday or something. Friday evening, no problem then, if you can ;c
  
  I love you

  1 decennium geleden