Felicita
Felicita
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Roman-Catholic - Feminist - Friend - Hipster - Dreamer - Gymnast - Book Lover - Singer - All or Nothing
She was too quiet
or she was too loud
She took things too seriously
or not seriously at all
She was too sensitive
or too cold-hearted
She hated with every fibre of her being
or loved with every piece of her heart
There was no in-between for her, it was eiter all or nothing
She wanted everything but settled for nothing
You don't ever really let go. though. You don't stop. You don't stop hurting, you don't stop loving. It doesn't go away, you just keep living and eventually things get pushed into the background of your life, so it's not consuming you every day. And then one day you know you're okay. It still hurts. You still miss her. And yeah, you forget the details. The way she smelled, the way she laughed, how her skin felt, the sound of her voice. It's almost like a different life, a different person that loved her, was with her. But on day-to-day level, you know you're okay. Sort of.
Makes sure you won't ever regret things you haven't done. You never know what might happen...
She was too quiet
or she was too loud
She took things too seriously
or not seriously at all
She was too sensitive
or too cold-hearted
She hated with every fibre of her being
or loved with every piece of her heart
There was no in-between for her, it was eiter all or nothing
She wanted everything but settled for nothing
Dear you,
I hate days like today,
when every single thing I see
reminds me of you.
I hate days like today,
when every single song I hear
somehow relates to you.
I hate days like today,
when every single person I meet
somehow looks like you.
I hate days like today,
when every single thing I do
makes me realise how much I miss you.
I hate days like today,
when every single thing I see
reminds me of you.
I hate days like today,
when every single song I hear
somehow relates to you.
I hate days like today,
when every single person I meet
somehow looks like you.
I hate days like today,
when every single thing I do
makes me realise how much I miss you.
You don't ever really let go. though. You don't stop. You don't stop hurting, you don't stop loving. It doesn't go away, you just keep living and eventually things get pushed into the background of your life, so it's not consuming you every day. And then one day you know you're okay. It still hurts. You still miss her. And yeah, you forget the details. The way she smelled, the way she laughed, how her skin felt, the sound of her voice. It's almost like a different life, a different person that loved her, was with her. But on day-to-day level, you know you're okay. Sort of.
Makes sure you won't ever regret things you haven't done. You never know what might happen...
Invest in people who invest in you
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Echt? Nee, dat wist ik helemaal niet en Roos volgens mij ook niet. Wat leuk!
1 decennium geledenDankjewel dat je ons daarop attendeert c:
Xx. Carlijn
Wauw echt super lief dat je dat gedaan hebt! Ben blij om te horen dat je mijn story Eleanor Weasley met plezier hebt gelezen. Heb het ook altijd met plezier geschreven.
1 decennium geledenDankjewel!
Liefs Silla
hee,
1 decennium geledendat is goed om te horen (:
en same, anders zou 't huilen worden ;c
xx
No need to thank me for that, it's my pleasure.
1 decennium geledenI love you - you still mean a hell lot to me.
Aw, that's not nice to hear, but if it's better, then it should've been that way. Good you're okay about now.
1 decennium geledenYeah, I'm my last year and it makes me so nervous all the time. I so afraid of failing and school's a mess and that's most of the time not my fault. Like IB English, it's such a mess and I hate that is has to go this way. I'm afraid I'll fail it because of the lack of communication and the lack of structure in the lessons. However, there's more going on regarding English. It sucks more for me, because I want to study English. We lost three months of lessons last year due to our teacher who had a disfunctional lung. Now we have to choose between Higher or Standard Level and he literally told me that if I had some more time, I could easily do Higher Level. So now I'm going to do Standard and that's fine, but it just sucks I could've done Higher if we didn't lose those lessons last year.
Further on, I'm super busy with organising Serious Request for our school and for my PWS. It goes alright, although my partners don't really listen to my opinion about things and I hate that.
And yeah, Greek and Latin is going to be a shitload to learn for my exams, but I guess that's my own fault for choosing them both.
Then there's still stuff going on with my dad and his side of the family which exhausts me. Also, I'm almost 18 and that means I need to pay insurances and these things and next year university and it already freaks me out. I'm just really scared of the future.
There's a positive thing though, I've been clean for three weeks now, I guess. Something like that. I've been seeing a psychologist and I guess that's helped a little. At least I don't feel that lonely anymore and I've grown closer to my friend, which is good. I've told her everything and she was understanding and is interested. It's different than what I'm used to but I'm accepting it. I think my "depressed" periods have reduced a little, and they're not as severe as they were first. I can have fun and I laugh a lot more, though I can still feel pretty crap. It's mostly nights that make me go mad.
But yeah, let me stop talking. Tell me about you. How are you doing? What keeps you busy these days and what's on your mind?
It's good to talk to you again!
xxx