Morphine

I go to bed with your name
With the person and security in my head
They make me fall asleep
It's like morphine in surgery

But you don't have the exact same feelings
The feelings I have
They can almost kill me
So strong as they are now

I know they don't follow time
Something that I want
There's a battle between my head and chest
And I'm the one losing

Your name is still there when I go to bed
Still giving me morphine
Now they drag a memory
A memory which keeps me awake

I feel like an insomniac
Chasing sleep and grabbing a lighter
With footsteps on the cold pavement
I know I'm losing it

Thinking of all the things I have
I will never have it all
The little things I need, and you need
They aren't part of me

You have it all
And I'm the shadowwalker
Wishing that my soul was heaven
But in the end you will look past me