Feelings of a random unicorn

I'm always the girl people talk to. Tell their problems to. Share their secrets.
I'm always the girl who wants to help. Who can't stand it seeing one of her friends being sad.
I'm the mediator. The stable factor in the group. The shoulder you can cry on. The girl who makes you smile after the tears.
But i'll never be the hot girl guys fall in love with. I'll never be the brave one, who talks with every stranger she meets. I'll never be perfect. I'll never be the one people expect me to be.
And i don't want to be it too. Not anymore.
I'm sick of all the nights i spend crying, thinking. Of the fear i have when i have to step out of my comfort zone. Of the opinions of others.
Yes, i'm not skinny. Yes, i'm not always smiling. Yes, i'm not brave. Yes, i've been jealous of my best friend. Knowing that she's pretty. That she's funny, brave and everything that i want to be.
But i don't care anymore. Or well, i'm trying not to care anymore.
I'm not proud of what i did. Of what i said.
But i'm here now. Willing to change. Willing to accept a shoulder to cry on. To admit that i can't make it on my own.
I'm thankfull for the friends i have, and for the people who support me.

Sometimes you think you'll be fine by yourself
Cause a dream is a wish you make all alone
It's easy to feel like you don't need help
But it's harder to walk on your own

You'll change inside
When You realize
The world comes to life
and everything's right
From beginning to end
When you have a friend by your Side
That helps you to find
The beauty you are
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe in
The Gift of a Friend