Chapter 2

The day after was a weird one, i decided to just go on with the rehearsals for the tour, i needed distraction, if i liked it or not. And believe me, a black veil brides rehearsal, is the best distraction in the entire world. Four hours of fooling around and doing what we want. ' i think we should try fallen angels again' i mumbled to jinxx and he nodded his head, as sign of a yes. After a couple of hours, juliet showed up to pick me up, i decided i wanted to see my mom and dad, even though i would never forget that anymore. We quitted rehearsal and juliet and i walked over to her car. I was shaking and slowly tears came into my eyes again. I grabbed her hand 'im so scared..' 'me too baby, but remember, they are still your parents.' she said trying to comfort me. 'i know, thanks juju' i answered while looking at the picture i was keeping in my bag all the time. It was a picture of me and my parents after one of my shows. My dad used to be a co manager of the band and my mom did the merchandise. So they could be close to me all the time.'i miss you' i mumbled half crying.
Juliet heard it and petted me on my knee, 'its okay baby, its okay' she said. I smiled a little and grabbed her hand.

Not long after it we arrived at the hospital. Doctor cantwell was already waiting for us. He led us to the room in wich they had their last moments. Wounded and bloody, they were laying in the beds. I ran over to my mom and grabbed her hand. I laid my head on her chest, in a try to feel or hear a heart beat, but no. Again i started crying 'mommy, don't leave me alone, don't go anywhere, i need you.' juliet held her hand through my hair. 'shh baby...' she tried. But i couldnt stop crying, the idea of my mom who wouldnt be around anymore, was too much. I kept my head on her chest for a while, talking to her, hoping she would hear me and wake up. 'i love you mom, please don't find someone else as your son up there, i need you mom....'i cried. I looked over to the bed in which my dad layed. The man who raised me to who i was, who always supported me and who always told me i could do anything if i just believed, was laying there, so vulnerable, so broken. And i was too, about the fact i would never see him smile again. Not the usual good morning smile when he woke me up. I grabbed his hand and again the tears streamed. 'please dad, not you too.... i can;t live without you, i need you....' i almost screamed. 'i want you to hear me! I want you to be here! Come back!!!' I yelled in a hopeless attempt. I knew i had to leave, cause i already had an hour ago. Juliet grabbed me by the arm and led me outside. 'this was it. their really gone, juliet, their gone...' i cried. 'baby, its gonna be okay,,, ' she tried. Quietly i got into the car. The whole road back home, i didnt say a word. I was empty. As soon as we got home i hopped into my bed. I wanted to hide from the world.