Jar of hearts - Zayn Malik

Zayn and I were now almost a year together so I wanted to suprise him and visit him at home since we haven't seen eatchother for a while now. And even tho it's raining I'm walking to his house with a big smile on my face. But when I arrive I can see it being all dark, there is no light. I call him but I get no answer. But then I see a light go on downstairs. I can see two people walking. Happy and kissing. I see that it is Zayn with another girl. Not knowing what to do so I start to cry. I fall on my knees and cry even more. How could he do this? I thought he loved me. I thought what we had was special. A million thoughts go through my head and I start to scream. Then I hear a door opening and the girl walks outside. I turn around and look Zayn in the eyes. I start to yell at him "WHAT IS SHE DOING HERE! I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME ZAYN" The girl now is running away and Zayn walks to me. He start to hug me and tell everything is fine, but this makes me even more mad. How could he say everything is fine? Nothings fine now. My heart just fell apart. I push his arms away and I hear him asking me to come back and I hear him running towards me. "Let me explain please" He says. "There is nothing to explain Zayn I've seen it with my own eyes I'm done" Then I feel his strong arms holding me so I can't move. "I love you and I'm sorry. It was stupid but.." "But what?" Ofcourse I still love him. But I'm just broken now. And I don't want to forgive him this easy, maybe he'll think he can do it again. "I Love you" Thats all he could say. "I love you to. But this is to much" I can see his tears. And it is really hard not to forgive him. I just don't want this again. "Give me some space Zayn, please" "I love you" he says again and he walks back. "Sorry" He whispers this time.

While walking back home I hear a loud noice and people screaming so I turn around there I see two cars crashed and a guy laying on the ground. After looking for a while I realize that guy is Zayn and I start to run to the cars and Zayn. I sit next to him holding his hand, but he won't move. I can only see him blinking a couple times and he opens his mouth. "I'm sorry" He tried to say. With tears streaming down my face I kiss his forhead and I can feel him squeezing my hand a bit. Then I feel two hands on my shoulders and a deep man voice saying to me I have to get up. If I ask the man what happened he said Zayn jumped in front of his car and that it was to late to stop. Again a million thoughts go through my head. He commited suicide? .. This makes me angry about myself. Why didn't I say I forgive you why didn't I hug him back when I could? Now he's gone. I didn't want to lose him this way. With all those things I whipe my tears away and whisper to Zayn once again "I won't leave you alone baby" and I walk towards the highway. I see people trying to stop me but they are to late...
I can see lights flashing, people screaming and lots of other loud noices. But I don't mind In a moment I will be with Zayn again, and everything will be fine from then.