Your hell and my hell are 2 different things,, eddie 9 {twilight}

dinner
do you trust me?? that`s very stupid of you

I walk up to my house and I see a young woman on the porch. “hi Aislin” she says,, her voice is musical. “how do you you know my name” I ask her and I try to open my door. “your neighbor told me that,, I`m Esme Cullen” “what are you doing here” I walk into the house and she follows me. When I`m at the counter,, I put the bag down and I turn around to look at her. “I wanted to invite you to come over for dinner,, tonight” omg,, I really can`t have dinner people I don`t know,, I can`t even have dinner with people I do know. “that`s not a good idea” I turn around again and I muddle a bit with the groseries,, so I don`t have to look at her. “Well I won`t take no for an answer” her musical voice sounds closer,, and then I see why. She stands next to me and helps me with the bags.

After 5 minutes she convinced me,, and I have promised that I would be there around 7. It`s now 12 o`clock,, so I take a box off fudge and go watch the movie Billy Elliot.

I know how it feels like when your parents want something different for you,, then what you want. Then one of my hallucinations is sitting next to me. “you promised you would go,, and you are just gonna stay away.” she sounds upset. “how do you know these kind off things,, and why don`t you just leave me alone” I really don`t wanna have this conversation. “you know I`m not really a hallucination,, and neither is Jasper” she also looks at the tv,, and I think Jasper is the boy,, who I thought I saw at the airport. “you want a fudge??” I ask her and show her the box. “no thank you” and then we just sit there and watch the movie.

“it`s nice to have someone who watch tv with me” I tell her quietly. “I know you feel like you`re all alone,, but things are gonna change,, I promise you.” I look at her,, and she also turns her head. “I`m Aislin” I`ll bet she already knows,, but I hope to get her name. “I`ve to go” she says. “Great,, leave,, get lost,, see if I care” I`m really angry. “please calm down” she sounds pleading. “GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HOUSE” I grab the first thing I can get and trow it at her head. The remote gets to the wall,, and I look away from her and stare out the window. When I turn around after a second,, she is gone. “stupid,, fake,, ow I really care about you hallucination” I mumble still angry. I put another dvd on,, but I don`t really watch. I`m alone,,again. Nobody can love you goes threw my head.

I look at the clock,, it`s 5.30 when I finally can think straight again. Maybe I should get ready,, but after what happend I really don`t want to go. The doorbell rings,, I`ll bet it`s them again. Why do they bother so much what happends to me. When I open the door,, my mom is standing there. “hii sweety,, I forgot my keys.” and she just walks in. “we should get ready,, we re gonna have dinner at the new family,, the Collens or something”. “I don`t want to” I say childish. She doesn`t know my name,, I`ll bet she doesn`t remember my age neither.

After a lot of bullshit and sreaming,, we are standing on the porch of the Cullens. “stupid mom” I mumble so soft,, so that she doesn`t hear it. Before we can ring the bell,, the door gets opened. “Hi” It`s Esme “nice of you to come”. Yeah but we are a nice and happy family I think sarcastic. My mom push me in and she walk right behind me. I must say they have a really beauful house,, but I`m not gonna say that out loud. They can all get someting from my part.

Then I see my “hallucinations” again. “mom,, can we go home??” now I sound pleading. “Don`t be ridiculous,, we just got here” My mom introduce us to them. Well she said "this is my daughter" about me.,, and they introduce them to us. Now I at least know that I`m not really hallucinating,, and I know her name. Alice. When I see the last boy,, I withdraw a little. It`s the stupid,, big headed, ow look at me I`m better then the rest,, freakish guy,, from my literature class. He still looks angry,, so I don`t give him a hand.

And I know I leave you on your one,, and I need you to be strong,, when I`m walking away. And I,, I hate to say goodbye,, it gets harder every time. What I feel,, you feel inside. When the days turn into night