Chapter 46

Uitgeput lagen we tegen elkaar en we wisten beiden dat het tijd werd om te praten, maar de behoefte om dat te doen was ver te zoeken. Voor nu lijkt het alsof het nooit voorbij is geweest tussen ons en voor even wil ik dat ook blijven geloven. Helaas komen aan alle dingen een einde want toen onze ademhaling weer rustig en regelmatig werd, was er geen reden om het nog verder voor ons uit te schuiven. Schijnbaar voelde Harry het al aankomen aangezien hij mij tegen zich aanschoof en zo tegen mijn rug aanlag. Ik wilde hem alleen kunnen zien tijdens het praten, waardoor ik me omdraaide en hem in zijn ogen kon aankijken.

"Harry"
"Amelia"
Tegelijk zeiden we elkaars naam en tegelijk stopten we ook weer met praten. Het was alleen mijn beurt. 'I'm sorry for not wanting to listen to you, It felt like you cheated on me and I couldn't get over the feeling I had inside. I thought you lied and I didn't want to hear anything from you, and that's why I gave you such a hard time. I tried to forgive you, but I just couldn't as the idea of you giving the same thing to her as you gave to me was just,... I couldn't deal with that feeling. And it was the same girl as before and I didn't want to listen to anyone. I told you in the beginning that what's mine, is mine and this just hurted too much. I can live with the stress, the fans, you being away for concerts and interviews, but you with another girl just broke me down and will Always break me down.'

'shhh.'
Ik had niet eens door dat er weer tranen over mijn wangen waren gegleden, maar ik kreeg het gevoel alsof ik alles weer opnieuw meemaakte. Hem zag met haar, de pijn die ik daarna voelde, alles. 'I'm the one who need to say sorry, not you. I shouldn't have done what I have done. I should have told you what my plans were so you wouldn't see it in the papers. But believe me when I say I only agreed in seeing Chloé was to tell her you are the only one special to me. That I wanted to give our relationship the best of me, and see where it brought me.' kwam er sarcastisch uit. 'The moment you told me you didn't want to ever see me again, that you hated me from the bottom of your heart and that I heard you crying after you slammed the door. It broke me, but to see and hear that scene everynight in my dreams plus the fact to know that I actually lost you, it killed me. She ain't even the half of you Ames and I never suspected she would do such a thing. How do you actually know all of the things you know?'

'Well, let's just say the guys and Destiny had such a nice surprise a few days ago. A surpise which includes Chloé.'
Hij knikte toen hij begreep wat er gebeurd was. 'So it took you a few days to come to me when you heard she and I were nothing?!'
Even voelde ik mij echt schuldig tot ik een vlaag van pret in zijn ogen zag. 'Owh you are terrible. I thought you might not wanted to see me again either and I felt guilty for what I've done and said. Owh and the stairs...'
'Of course, the terrible stairs you had to walk to come to my door. The obstacles, the mountains you head to climb, the tigers you had to fight, the cold weather you had to endure, all to come to me. But I forgive you, because you finally overcame the stairs. You succeed!'
Met een speelse tik op zijn armen laat ik mij achterovervallen op het bed. 'You are terrible and if you want to keep living here, please buy a lift or something.'
'Impossible, but I can give you a daily excercise with which your condition will increase giantly.'

'Is that a promise?'
'Promise.'
'Then I would like to purchase a lifetime pass please.'

Het volgende hoofdstuk!! Het einde komt nabij