She only wanted to fly [English]

'But I wanna fly!' Squeecked the little girl. 'No, you can't, it's dangerous!' Her mum stepped towards her and got the kid of the balcony. She brought her innocent daughter almost crying inside. She locked the balcony door and told her man not to open it ever again. Now the little girl has grown up. Not so innocent anymore. A different view on the world. As little kid she was happy. Now she don't know what happy means. She looked outside the balcony window. Her eyes were lifeless. They didn't sparkle like they used to when she was a kid. Her heart aches once again and the tears burned behind her eyes. She didn't hear what was going on around her. With her headphones the whole world faded away. Rain made the vision to outside bad. A deep sigh what came out her toes left her mouth. It was an attempt to sigh away the pain. She had tried it many times, it never worked. Still she kept trying. Hoping for a miracle what would make her happy again or something in that way. She felt numb, she was numb, her heart was hollow. One tear runned down her face. Harshly she rubbed the tear away with an angry frown. She didn't fel anything! She wasn't anything! The tears stopped and burned once agsin behind her eyes. Behind her eyes wasn't on her cheeks so she was okay with it. Once again the same sight but when nothing happened again she only felt more horrible. She wanted to get up. But she felt to numb and to weak to actually get on her feet. One song further and she attempted a second try. Slowly she got up. Her eyes seemed to look trough everything.In a straight line she walked to the kitchen. Her hands grabbed an item and right away she turned around and waked back to the place she sat earlier. The keys she had grabbed fit perfectly in the lock. She turned the key around and the balcony door slowly opened. She sniffed the cold rainy air, she loved that smell. She walked towards the railing and looked at the houses, the streetlantens, the cars. She climed on the railing and she sat on it. She sniffed once again and felt dizzy. She felt that her cheeks had wetned, she was crying. Everything went through her head that minute. How would the crack sound. How would everyones life go on. But she had already overthought that a thousand times. Her school would move on right away. Her friends would maybe cry. They would miss her for one week then she would fade away in their minds. Her parents would miss her also but after a month or two they would think about the horrible things she had done. It would soften the pain. And well her family would be the same story. She stood up and held her onto the railing. She looked down and felt like throwing up. But then, after a minute it replaced it for a scary restfull peace in her mind. She had total control about her body. For one last time she looked into the world. She closed her eyes and screamed 'I WANNA FLY!' Before she fell off the balcony.