Dear heart, why?

I will tell you a story about this boy. But first you need to get to know me. I am a girl with the age of 15 my name is Jill, and everybody around me is getting together. Which makes me feel lonely sometimes.

The other day I was bored at school and well yeah suddenly I heard the teacher getting mad at this boy named Ian, he is hot and just that made me believe he won't get interested in a girl like me. I felt like I didn't need to try because it wouldn't work out anyway. That afternoon I saw him riding his bike to his house. And well yeah I needed to work that day, which was in the same direction. I speeded up and rode next to him. He smiled at me immedetly telling a story about that day.

Now this Friday, I finally figured out my feelings for him. Because of yesterday I know I do have feelings for him. But I won't tell him that cause I still think he isn't interested. I know I can use a real picture of him, so This is him.

It is a picture from London, we went there with school. Well that was one of the first times I really liked him. Cause I had really no one to go with me, but I just refused not to take the change, and so I entered myself. I just thought I would go shopping alone. But then, a friend of him asked if she could walk with me, which meant he would walk with us too when we were with the group .

Then the second time was just yesterday. We had a this big party in the town. I thought he wouldn't come, when the same thing happened. His friend 'Rachel' said she Linda and Jeany were coming too. And maybe Ian too. I partied the whole night until that moment he danced with me, really danced. And i got shy. I went straight to the bathroom. And the night was over, now, the day after, Im sitting here in my room. And got my laptop and started to write this. He is very special to me cause he doesn't care who's around he will chat up with you, that gives me the power to go back every day. And now, its the start of a holiday vacation and I just can't stop thinking about him, wondering if he does the same.... probbaly not.