Dark age?

Once there was a Time,
Time of despair.
Not giving a ....,
about life.
Just living a sole life.
What strangly,
made me happy,

But then I started.
Started to care
about others,
about the value...
of my own life

Iaught a lot,
Had a lot of fun.

But while I laught,
Deep inside,
I was crying.
Because this way of Living,
Hurts me the most,

Because you cannot,
let go of it,
Cannot fall back
after tasting it.

All i feel
is Sadness
What's starting
To turn
in Madness

Why did i,
me of all,
met those amazing people,
who made me care,
About life....