En verder, natuurlijk, the icon, the legend, everything i yearn to be: V.E. Schwab.
“A dreamer,” scorns her mother.
“A dreamer,” mourns her father.
“A dreamer,” warns Estele.
Still, it does not seem such a bad word.”
The old gods may be great, but they are neither kind nor merciful. They are fickle, unsteady as moonlight on water, or shadows in a storm. If you insist on calling them, take heed: be careful what you ask for, be willing to pay the price. And no matter how desperate or dire, never pray to the gods that answer after dark.
I am stronger than your god and older than your devil. I am the darkness between stars, and the roots beneath the earth. I am promise, and potential, and when it comes to playing games, i divine the rules, I set the pieces, and I choose when to play.
Time moves so fucking fast.
Blink, and you’re halfway through school, paralyzed by the idea that whatever you choose to do, it means choosing not to do a hundred other things, so you change your major half a dozen times before finally ending up in theology, and for a while it seems like the right path, but that’s really just a reflex to the pride on your parents’ faces, because they assume they’ve got a budding rabbi, but the truth is, you have no desire to practice, you see the holy texts as stories, sweeping epics, and the more you study, the less you believe in any of it.
Blink, and you’re twenty-four, and you travel through Europe, thinking—hoping—that the change will spark something in you, that a glimpse of the greater, grander world will bring your own into focus. And for a little while, it does. But there’s no job, no future, only an interlude, and when it’s over, your bank account is dry, and you’re not any closer to anything.
Blink, and you’re twenty-six, and you’re called into the dean’s office because he can tell that your heart’s not in it anymore, and he advises you to find another path, and he assures you that you’ll find your calling, but that’s the whole problem, you’ve never felt called to any one thing. There is no violent push in one direction, but a softer nudge a hundred different ways, and now all of them feel out of reach.
Blink and you’re twenty-eight, and everyone else is now a mile down the road, and you’re still trying to find it, and the irony is hardly lost on you that in wanting to live, to learn, to find yourself, you’ve gotten lost.
Three words, large enough to tip the world. I remember you.
Vergilius: Flectere si nequeo superos Acheronta movebo (vooral omwille van de paradox in 'superos Acheronta' en paradoxen in het Latijn zijn dé stijlfiguur waarom ik Latijn zo leuk vind)
En dan letterlijk zoveel lyrics van LEAP, Nothing But Thieves en Dead Poet Society.
OH en dan ook de hele Dead Poets Society film, die helemaal niets met de band te maken heeft (of vice versa).
Ik ga op het moment nog steeds goed op de Lyrics van how do I say goodbye van Dean Lewis.
So how do I say goodbye
To someone who's been with me for my whole damn life?
You gave me my name and the color of your eyes
I see your face when I look at mine
So how do I, how do I, how do I say goodbye?
Mijn vader is in Januari 2024 overleden en dit liedje hielp om een of andere reden zo enorm. Het zingt wat dat betreft ook lekker mee.
Dus waar ik het lied 'papa' van Stef Bos echt heel lang niet aan kon horen, was dit juist een nummer waar ik me heerlijk in kon verliezen. Mis hem nog elke dag, maar soms helpt muziek zo goed (:
The Unkillable Soldier van Sabaton geeft me altijd zo'n fucking boost wanneer ik door een lastige periode ga en herinnert me eraan mijn koppie hoog te houden.
"At the edge of madness, in a time of sadness
An immortal soldier finds his home
Proven under fire, over trench and wire
Forged for the war, he's unbreakable"
"By design, he was made for the frontline."
Fuck yes. God, I love this band so much. Zag ze afgelopen maandag nog in het Ziggo, maar ik kijk nu alweer rijkhalzend uit naar een volgende tour.
"Once there were brook trouts in the streams in the mountains. You could see them standing in the amber current where the white edges of their fins wimpled softly in the flow. They smelled of moss in your hand. Polished and muscular and torsional. On their backs were vermiculate patterns that were maps of the world in its becoming. Maps and mazes. Of a thing which could not be put back. Not be made right again. In the deep glens where they lived all things were older than man and they hummed of mystery."
- Cormac McCarthy, The Road
Zo mooi dat ik verschrikkelijk heb moeten huilen toen ik het voor het eerst las. Een tekst die prachtig vat hoe fragiel het levens en ons bestaan is.