Finally Perfect.
Finally Perfect.
Lately I keep wondering how people see me.
Do they hate me? Do they think I'm annoying? Sweet? Funny? Weird?
I wonder what they'd write if they made a poem about me. I wonder what the outcome will be and I wonder if I could recognize myself in it. I wonder how I would feel afterwards, when I’ve read it all. Would I feel hurt or happy or somehow nostalgic? Would I cry or smile?
I guess you never know until someone actually writes about you. You never know until someone shows it to you.
But I think I will be happy, just because it shows someone cares, someone knows you. Someone think you’re worth to be writing about. Yes, that must feel amazing.
I wonder what my friends would say, or the bitches in my school, or the cute guy from over the street. I wonder what they would have to say about me.
People keep saying you shouldn’t care about what other people think of you. But how could you not when there’s so many other people and there’s only one you?
How could you not when, all your life, people gave you directions and told you things to do, since I didn’t know what the hell I was doing?
How could you not wonder when you have the biggest self-esteem issues, and you’re just looking for acceptance from the others?
How could you not when people have always told things about you, mean or good?
I wonder if one day, someone, will walk up to me and actually say what they think. And I really hope that what they think is good, because otherwise, it just doesn’t help. I wonder if one day, one guy or girl, will have something good to say about me, without naming all the minuses, because it hurts too much to hear those.
I can just hope that one day, some day, someone.. Will just come over to me and tell me I’m good enough. Tell me I’m amazing or great or even perfect if it’s not too much to ask. Because people have been telling me otherwise throughout the years.
I just wonder if one day, I’ll be good enough for someone. Finally good enough.
Maybe even perfect?
Yes, that would be nice.
Finally perfect.
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