Still nothing

First you're not there, then I am paranoid,
and then the real quarantine starts.
All of that right after opening up,
2020 what are you doing?
First late March, then early April,
and now mid June.
Still. Nothing.

God, I get it if it is a message thing.
Ask A., I am the same too.
But why can't you tell me so?
Now I am in the dark on my own.
I also get it being a health thing:
you, people close to you, mental health, ..
So really, I can't even be mad,
I'm just wondering on my own.

From 'it must be Corona or life being life, she will reply later'
to 'I know she has her reasons' mixed in with doubts.
Should I have told those things? Is she regretting that meet up? Should I have opened up? Is this her ignoring me or something else?
So please I., just say hi or something,
'cause I won't see you the next weeks neither..

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