Fear-conditioning

I have been conditioned.
I do not talk.
I do not share.
I have been conditioned not to.

I have been conditioned.
You will not hear about my problems
You will not hear about my worries
You will not hear about my insecurities
Until I have dealt with them.
I have been conditioned that way.

I have been conditioned.
I am like one of Pavlov’s dogs.
I will act without realising it.
Which means that I will be silent.
Except I do not get food.
I get hurt.
I have been conditioned by pain.

I have been conditioned.
I am scared
That telling will cause you pain
That telling will cause you panic.
Not because you care so much
But because you have your own problems.
I am scared
That sharing is pushing your limits.
I have been conditioned to be scared.

I have been conditioned.
I am sorry for not sharing
I am sorry for not trusting
I am sorry
I have been fear-conditioned.

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