Everything is gonna be fine

Two years ago. It was a sunny day. We were at the playground. I sat on the swing and he started pushing me. I felt free. Happy. In love. I wanted that moment to last forever.
I felt the wind going through my hair as I went higher and higher. I could almost touch the sky.
He put his arms around me when I stopped. I could feel his breath in my neck. His lips on my skin. It was a perfect moment.
We felt fearless, untouchable. Like it would last forever.
Not knowing that it would be our last time together. Not knowing that he would die that night.
Now two years later. I'm here on the same day, on the same swing in the pouring rain.
I feel empty, tired. Like a piece of me is missing. It is tearing me apart. I wanna feel his arms around me. His lips on my lips. His hand in my hand. Not matter what I do, that feeling won't go away.
It is killing me.
I wanna feel happy again. I wanna feel fearless again, loved, wanted.
It is time to let go. Let go of the past. That is the only way to get on with my life.
I close my eyes and feel the rain stop falling. I feel how the sun starts shining. How it dries my hair and warms my skin.
I can feel him watching over me.
And I know everything is gonna be fine.