Your hell and my hell are 2 different things,, eddie 12 {twilight}

ask the question
are you really this nice,, or are you just a hallucination. Because if you are a hallucination,, are rather stay crazy

“I don't wanna live with the guilt.” Is he serious. I suppress the trend to say,, liar liar pants on fire,, and look at him. “It's like,, I know I could help you,, but instead I just stand by and do nothing” And to think,, that I actually thought,, that he would care for me. Because apparently that's too hard for him too.

I still have so many questions left,, but I get cold and a bit tired. And I want to have a moment for myself. “I know it's not my turn to ask a question,, but I want to get changed. Could you please hold for a minute” He looks at me. “sure,, but after that I can to ask you 2 questions also” “that's not fair,, with this one I didn't get any pointer” “Well then I ask you 1 question,, that has nothing to do with this,, take it or leave it”. I don't mind that so I grab my things,, and leave for the bathroom.

After 5 minutes i return in my top and pants. “That took more then one minute” He said aquished. “I'm sorry” I mumble a bit ashamed. “It was a joke,, Aislin” he laughs. It's weird to hear my name inside this house. “I knew that” I lay down in bed,, and pull the blankets over me. He comes and sit next to me. “So now it's my turn to ask 2 questions” he continue “Why are you mad at Alice??” Jesus this guy really wants to make me cry. “Because every time I want to speak to someone,, about how I feel,, they just leave me. And I kind of hoped she was different.” don't cry,, don't cry,, don't cry. “She wasn't leaving you” he want me to look at him but,, because I feel the tears coming,, I look away stubborn. “You still have one question left” Silence. In my head there's panic,, is he still there?? I'm too afraid,, that he wouldn't be there,, to turn around.

“you said you where in the hospital for 6 months. What happened??” he wants to know if I tried to kill myself that time too,, but sins he can's ask me that. He just does it like this. I'm impressed. “I had a accident with the car” “tell me” is that another question? “no,, it's my turn to ask you one” “no,, I asked you what happened,, so you tell me the whole story” I'll bet he is gonna laugh at me. “okay but you have to promise me something” I look really serious “depends on what” “don' laugh” now he is laughing already. “okay I promise” “well I borrowed my moms car,, to go to supermarket. And I forgot to drive on the right side of the road,, because we drive on the left side. And another car drove into me,, that is why I was in the hospital” He looks for one moment and then try real hard not to laugh. “How can you forget,, to drive on the right side” “well I was only here for a week or so,, and it kind of slipped threw my mind”

Still he try to hold his laugh “your turn to ask a question” he says quickly. “why are you lying to me” now he's serious again. “because the truth might hurt you” that's the truth I think,, so I will let it go for now. “The first time you and Carlisle met,, you slam the door in his face,, why??” Now I get to laugh,, because I really didn't have a good reason. “Because I was laying really warm and cosy in my bed,, and thanks to him I had to get out” Now he laugh,, because apparently I look really serious. “You know you can look so serious,, but I still know that you're lying. But it's your turn again.” Was I really lying?? did I had a good reason to do that?? I have only one question left for tonight,, because I'm exhausted. But I'm afraid to ask it. “I promise I won't laugh,, or get angry” did he feel that I was afraid?? Without thinking about it,, what this might could do,, I just ask it.

“Would you please stay here,, till I fall asleep”

If you stay here,, then I probably have sweet dreams. Because your eyes,, attract sweet things