Don't Stop Believing.

I have nothing. That’s the worst. I’m just a small town girl. I didn’t graduated like all of my friends, no. I’ll be doing my last year over. I have no idea where I’m heading to. I kind of just took the first train I saw. I’ll return in the morning, probably. I’m sitting on a midnight train, going somewhere.. and that’s all I need to know for the moment. I feel how my tears are pushing to get out. Oh well, it’s not like anyone will be seeing me. I wish my ipod could go louder.. it would make me deaf but I wouldn’t care. When music plays, it’s like the rest of the world gets pushed outside and that’s exactly what I need.
I stare outside the window. I have no idea where I’m heading to.. I should be with my friends, celebrating I’m graduated. The thing is, I don’t want to go to college. I want to be in a band and make music, make my living out of that. Well I am in a band. It’s more that my mum doesn’t believe we’re good enough to make it. Or the ‘It hasn’t got any guaranties. You’re so smart, don’t throw that away.’ That’s the one that always keeps coming back. I look up and see there’s a petite girl sitting, she looks like she’s about to cry. I guess she’s about 18years.. but it’s just she seems so small and vulnerable. “Sir, this is the last stop.” –the man smiles friendly. I nod. As I pass the seat where the girl was just sitting, I see that her phone is still laying on the bench. I grab it and quickly run after her.
“Hey.. you.” –I turn around and see a guy, a little older than I am. “You left your phone on the train.” –his smile’s cute. “Oh. Thank you.” – I didn’t even realize I forgot him. “Where’re you going.? It doesn’t seem to save to walk on your own in the dark.” –where’s the guy interfering with. I can take care of myself. “Can you just tell me what city this is.?” –I know it sounds stupid to ask. But I need to know. “I’m sorry.. I don’t know.” –the guy shrugs his shoulders and stares around. Not one person on the street. “Oh.. I’ll wait for the next train home.” –I smile softly and walk him by. “Hey.. would you mind grabbing something to eat.?” –the guy smiles. As far as I know, this guy could be a total creep. I stare at the terminal. There won’t be a train until like 5am.. and it’s not like I have something better to do. “Yeah..” –and I follow him. “Why aren’t you celebrating your graduating.?” –he looks at me and smiles friendly. “Because I didn’t graduated. You.?” – I stare into the dark street. You literally don’t see anything. “My mum will want me to go to college and I don’t want to.” -he shrugs his shoulders again. “Then you tell her you don’t want to go.? –she can’t make you.” –that’s all I want to do. Go to college with my friends. “I can.. but she still won’t approve me being in a band and trying to make it something big.” –now he’s the one staring. “I want to go to college so bad.. but I don’t think I will ever make it –I’m just not smart enough.” –and I immediately wished I didn’t say it. It sounds pathetic. “Don’t ever say that –as long as you really want it, it’ll work out just fine.” –I keep looking at him. “You should take your own advice.” –I smile and point out a bar that’s still open.
“I enjoyed our night.” –she smiles and stands up as the train stops at her stop. “I did too.” –I don’t want to say goodbye already, knowing that I’ll never see this girl again. “So.. could I possibly get your number.?” –I bite my lip. She smiles and shakes her head softly. “I’ll see you later, Alex.”- she turns her head one more time when she’s walking of the train. She softly bites her under lip and god damn, she looks so damn cute. I take off my cap and notice a little paper laying on the table that was in the center of us. “I hope you tell your mum you want to make music –maybe you should invite me to one of your shows. – Kathryn.” Under need that there’s a number.
My eyes go through the crowd. I don’t see her. There have been a lot of texting going on between us and I invited her for tonight, because it is the first big gig for my band. And then I notice her. How couldn’t I’ve seen her.? She’s standing against the wall. A big smile on her face, a smile that makes me warm and happy inside.