Life puzzle.

As I sit here, the tears are falling down, along my sking, down to my cheek where it finally drops down on my lap. The words I am looking for are lost and without any knowing what I am doing, I am writing. To nowhere, perhaps.
See yourself in another light. It is difficult, if you ask me. People said to me: 'Look where you have to be.' Easier said than done, don't you think? My opinion in all this fuss is nothing. I try to clear my head, and stay out of everything. I am neutral, I am Switzerland.
But how can I explain to someone what I feel, even when I don't know whát I feel? it is frustrating, more than you can understand. Finding that piece that will make the puzzle clear, and ready to solve. This puzzle in my head is a real brain-cracker. Searching and searching for just a little piece. Where is it?
But then again, is it my destiny to find that piece, so I can solve my problems, chaos, frustration? Perhaps the sun is shining to bright to find, and the moon too little to break. What lies in the past, stays in the past. So of course, I can stop looking for that piece, and leave my puzzle behind and go on. Again, easier said than done. I am sighing to find words to say how I feel, think or.. what?
Let's say, if I go on, and don't think about that tiny, little piece of myself, my puzzle, my frustration, will I ever be happy and joyful again? Sure, you will all say. It is just a tiny little puzzle which doesn't matter. But hey, that is what you guys all say. You don't know what I think, so helping me will be a big problem. I need to help myself, by finding that damned piece of my puzzle. So, here I go then.