Who am I

'How was it even possible things turned out to be like this? How did my life become so meaningless? What did I ever do to become such an ordinary,spoiled boy like I am nowadays?

Well everyone has a story and mine starts 2 years ago, Ha, probably you know my story, let me see, well I'm Harry Styles. I used to say: I'm Harry Styles, I'm 16 and I work in a bakery, now I prefer: I'm Harry Styles, I'm 19 and I'm 1/5 of One Direction. Soooo, back to the start: I was 16 when I auditioned for the x-factor. Lucky, good-looking, cheesy boy as I was (okay I could also sing), I made it trough to bootcamp. When I was told to go home the last day I started crying, I could have never realised my life was still about to change. I was placed in a Group with 4 other guys I just met, and as a group we got a lifeline to go to judges houses. We were lucky bastard to end up with Simon as our coach, he believed in us from the start. I think we did quiet well, from 5 random solo guys, we made it to a group with 5 best friende (brothers sounds more fitting). I'll never forget how we felt when we made it trough the liveshows. Okay, don't necessary to tell you all the rest, huh? I think you know it well enough, we became 3th, got signed, conquered the world... I don't know what caused the pain, the pain I felt inside, I just had a feeling that I couldn't satisfy the people anymore, I was just a s
inger, just another playboy. Everyone always just seemed to see only the bad in me. They picked me out of our group, to blame for everything. They said I was the one who never took something serious, I was the playboy with no feelings, I was a jerk, a spoiled child... the other boys tryed to stop all the rumours and the hate, and a lot of fans still supported me, but the hate just became to much. I lust my pleasure in life and I had this feeling nothing could bring it back.'